a beautiful nightmare...

Lately, i am bothered by this unexplainable feeling,
is it part of growing? Am i really maturing?
well I don't know a thing !
but I think it is exciting...

how it all started?

At first, I didn't felt any emotions
when he was introduced by our new companions,
he's a good guy with a sense of humor,
a rich kid who needs to hire a tutor...
we became friends but that's all
I never expected that he would fall...
he asked if he could court me,
I was shocked and replied "maybe"
I was happy to know he likes me.
but friends is all that we can be...
it was to late before I realized,
I like him too but I lied,
I never tried to confess fearing everything will be in mess...
semesters passed, now everything's in past..
unfortunately my feelings didn't last..
we were not like we used to be
because he's now a stranger to me,
no talks, just HI's after that he bids goodbye..
but every time I remember,
those limited times we had together...
it just makes me smile,and reminisce for awhile...

but I'm not sure if what i felt was true
or maybe it was just a cue
that everthing i've gone through
was just a nightmare of two...

Things are finally over,
it's time for me to move on and recover
for all what happenned was just a dream,
a dream I wish to become real.